Don’t understand how it is
When people inhabitate you
Like a virus
And everything fixates
Entering your system
Hiding in that spot
Infecting the cells of monaxia
And settling there
So once in a while
Their memories will haunt you
Their spasms ache
No matter for how well you knew them
Please call me one more time
Or please don’t
I don’t know
Will hearing you once more heal me
Or will it undo the heal

Their presence pains
The pain mutates
Destroying you
Inside out
Maybe I have cried too much
To still break down over this
Let me talk about it
Once and for all
Things can’t go on like this any further
Never going to recover from this
Collected again
But not whole
Torn to pieces
Every particle
Left and right
Back and forth
Pulled apart
Put together
Torn apart
Arranged again
Glued together
Crushed to atoms
Thrown away
Collected again
But not whole